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wow..it has been a long time i didnt update my blog..
blog was a very famous thing dring my secondary school..
nw..everyone wil on their fb..fb..fb..
some of them even ignore their msn,friendster n blog..
i remembered during the period of my secondary school..
the first thing i wil do was open my pc n go to other ppl's blog to leave comment n update my own blog..
i really miss the time when i was in secondary school..
especially the time we study for exam together n we hav or lunch,dinner together..
i really miss tat time..
uni life??so free??so bz??
haiz..
there is no real fren in my uni at all..
they jz look for the rich ppl, smart ppl..
tat's all..

i jz tel myself to ignore u..
today miss kat suddenly mentioned ur name..
asked where is u?
y din attend the recent tutorial?
all of them answered..
i reali hope tat i could tel miss kat tat u dropped the course..
i pretended nt to answer..
continued wif my question..
i hope tat u no longer in my heart..
u r the 1st one who made me felt wat is love..
u made me felt happy..
BUT
u also the one who made me sad..
u told me wat is grief..
i cried..
cant sleep at nite..
jz thinking of how 2 save our relationship..
how 2 make me n u felt better..
NOW
i jz remembered how cruel r u..
i remembered..
"can i sit beside u during class later?"
"cant..."(wif tat cruel eyes)
i would never forget how u treat me..
u should the one who awarded "the best liar"..


i told myself nt to give u neither chances to hurt me n made me grief..
thx 4 giving me the "unforgetful" experiences..
i wil remind myself..


true love?
i jz hope u dun come into my heart n make me sad again..
i so scared of love..
being single is the better life for me..


money wil be the merely love for me..
even no true love...
cos i jz dunwan to be hurted again..
i so scare of love..


is so suffer..
although i became better..
i jz hope tat i wont gt injury of love in my future..

my fren asked me bout u..
i jz smiled n pretend nt to ans her question..
i thought tat i became better after i wrote it out..n even cried..
i told myself early in the morning mz be happy..
when i heard the song "two is better than one"..my heart started to cry silently..
i hope tat my heart wil find another way..
love??
someone told me while u in love dun forget tat u also addicted wif drugs at the same time..
it could make u happy bt it also wil make u suffer..
the happier the more suffer u would be..
i tried to customary my life without u..
y the result stil the same??
i felt suffer when i closed my eyes at the night..
i tried my best to sleep without u in my heart..
i cant even sleep as previous..
u know how i slept after u leave me??
u dun even how suffer am i..
i slept beside my assignment n laptop..
jz too tired..
this is the only way for me to sleep..
can u show me the road??

y i still cant forget u??
can u tel me how u forget me to reduce my pain??
is reali pain deep in my heart..
i choosed to ignore everything bout u..
i forced myself nt to sms u or even go ur facebook n hav a look..
i even nt dare to ask ppl around me bout u..
i jz knew some updated news bout u from them..
i reali hope tat u wil tel me ur recent life voluntary cos i stil care bout u..
even we cant be together..
bt i stil hope tat we can make friend like the previous period..
things changed since we choose to leave each other..
i wil miss tat time we be together..
i thought my heart nt tat pain..
i thought tat i wont cry when i recall u..
my mind cant stop thinking bout u when i am alone..
i know tat we cant even meet in the future..
i reali hope tat u can bring along the memory between u n me go far away..
i noe its nt easy to recover..
hope tat my heart wont be tat pain..
cry??
i know it doesnt make sense..

i have nth to do..
juz dunno y..
i cant control my emotion..
sometimes i wil b crying at the nite..just too hurt or sad i think..
hope that i wil b ok..
meyb time is the best way for me..
just give me sometimes..
my brother keep scolding me..
he said i ad waste so many time..
i also hope that i can forget this painful life forever..
nvm..just give myself some times..
i sure can do it..
i trust myself..
i wanna b strong..i hope that my brother can understand me..
no one treat me better than my brother treat me..
please forgive me..
i know i have no time..
but i also hope that i can concentrate in my studies..
constitution is so hard..i dunno what the lecturer talking about..
criminal law still ok..contract law as well..
legal skill n LMS..i have no comment cos of that stupid lecturer..i dunno y they can become my lecturer since they dun evn know the way to teach us..
haiz..
so stress..

today no class..but so angry cos dunno the enrolment key for my crinal law n law of contract..
cant read notes..
today went nichii wif my bro's galfren..
so cheap all the shirt over there..
hmm..
i have nothing to do..hope tat i can log in the e-learning as soon as possible..
yeah...

has been 16 days..
mayb we r in the same class..
moral studies also in the same class..
i reali hope tat v stil can b fren like b4..
it seems something blocking us..
mayb there's so much happen between us..
i just can pay full attention in my studies just to forget u for a while..
during the moment b4 i sleep..i also cant sleep..all my mind not empty at tat moment..
i just can listen to songs to make myself feel better..
today malanie told me something..i am happy to hear tat..
i would think tat u din lie to me b4..i choosed to trust u..
time is the main medicine for me..
i just hope tat i wil not look backward anymore..
my sis told me tat..time wont wait me..time wont pity me even i stop my life at tat sad moment..
finally i awake..i hope tat i can sleep at nite without listening songs..
mayb v all wil be busy on our own studies..i believe time is the most realiable evidence to prove myself to u..
goodluck to myself..

i think i reali so stress aa today..
especially my crimal law's lecturer speak so so fast..
she said got 4 methods..
but non of them is suitable for me..
haiz..dunno how to die liao this time..
hmm..just like this..
got assingment coming aroundd the corner..
i think need to be extremely concerntrate in my studies..
i hope i reali can do it..

studying law in HELP..
english damn killing me..
stress..just dunno how to survive wif my low level's english..
i think need to put so so many many effort on it..

why everything in my life changed suddenly??
what did i do??am i not good enough??
i keep asking myself those question..
why i just cant be happy all the time??
why all bed things happen on me??
i so stress..feel wanna suicide for several times..
i lost myself..
nothing is important than u..
its real..
time is one of the evidence proving my love to u..
we have no choice..i trust watever u told me..
i hope u wont let me down..
3 years..
i have been single for 13 days..
i hope u wil b the only one i admire n love at the rest of my life..
3 years..i hope tat day wil come soon..

这个星期的所有时间都用来讲他的坏话。。
不爽。。只能用没有用的人来形容他。。
超不爽他。。没风度。。
最重要没品。。缺德！！！！！！！！！！！


缺德

shui4 ka4 佬

超不爽

今天放学后，不知那个车发什么神经..
alarm不能用哦..
电话钱有没完了..
嘉慧借我电话但哥哥也救不到我..
后来到nami借我电话打..
结果是在学校等爸爸..


zzz..

YaNnY^^

YANNY..



yanny..ok???
i wrote ur name..

haha...

昨天补完刘明华后，就出去玩..
有几个人啊..
我和伟宾驾车去..原本搭monorail的..过后想到没关系啦..
大家都可以省钱..就载他们咯..
有bui,MT,ET,hooi yen,jun hui,roland,guan hua,yanny,wei yang,LIN,nami,wei bing..
我们去TS..
去gasoline吃东西先，我们的食物很快到，但水就等了老半天...zzz..
然后就去red box唱K..
yanny很高音..唱得很好..
然后那个MT唱他的英文歌..
我也点了三首英文歌，只有第一首是顺利的..
接下来那两首鱼到..只会唱一点点..
过后就到他们一个一个唱..
lin唱英文歌..
jun hui唱黑色毛衣，但那天他穿白色毛衣..
wei bing唱我还想她..
wei yang唱爱不久..
最后一首大家唱劲歌金曲..
然后去看BLOOD..
那个小夜很lenglui..
一开始我以为很恐怖就很怕..那个MT一开场就吓了我两次..
但过后就发现都不恐怖..
看戏不要坐hooi yen旁边..一直乱叫..zzz...不过hooi yen也蛮可爱的..
过后就回家..

今天给yanny驾我的车..
她驾车还不错咯..
补课..闷到..
除了lmh的补课就还好..很精神..
放假就这样少了五天..
唉....
算了..无所谓啦..
也不懂有什么要写了..
就这样啦..

CHAN HOOI YEN

唉
现在在学校，生物补课，闷
电脑坏了，所以不能上网，妈咪不理我。。
上次写LIM SHIYAN的名是因为他叫我写下他，就写咯。。

好像没什么特别了。。
现在写CHAN HOOI YEN因为她叫我写的。。

林硕彦

LIM SHI YAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

看人不可只看表面..
只是觉得朋友间应该互相相信..
我选择相信你..
大考要到了..
怕死..要加油..
好象没什么了..zzz...

泉发的farewell

yanny n her biao ge
yen n yanny

yanny

yen n xun rui

me n yen

men xun rui

me n nami

me n chuat

me n yannyz biao ge

me n yen

昨天是泉发的farewell..
me,hooi yen,conie,jia ying,xuer,xun rui,yanny,xin ni,jenny,lu fa,guan hua,wei ming(guo & qiu),neng xiang,hung wei,BEN,yi hong,zhi hui,wen jun,he kang,guo run,lau beh,wei guo,ah bui..etc..

我七点去载慧渊，差点忘了她家在哪..
去学校集合,遇到伟铭他们咯..等泉发..不会去..lu fa也到了..
等了一下就出发了..
刚开始guan hua叫我跟鹤康的车..结果他带我走很大圈..
guan hua在车死命乱骂..结果鹤康讲走这比较快..zzz..
我们要去jusco在yanny..结果分开走了..
yanny上车后，guan hua就打电话问他们怎样去那边..

终于到了"老地方"（stimbot）..很开心下..吃吃吃..然后一直拍照..
那个yanny的广东话弄到我们全部一直笑..不过她讲到很好下..

ah bui 先对泉发讲些话..他竟然落泪，毕竟认识了十多年..会舍不得的..
jenny..比较ok..还控制到心情..
conie啊..重点是泉发还是会载她去学校，因为要载妹妹去..
到BEN带领大家唱"最佳埙友"..蛮感动的..

我们竟然吃了RM729..若没记错..不过一个人才RM20..蛮便宜的..
还认识了yanny的"表哥"慧渊先到家..


泉发：
你是个大好人..记得之前你对我们都很好..载过我n次了..
对不起每次麻烦你..你的为人真的很好..
样子和为人成正比..我们去年年尾才熟..尤其是放假时更熟..
有时你的动作很搞笑..和你乐观的性格一样..
还有还有..你讲我是第一个讲你帅的人..哈哈..你还到处告诉别人..不过是真的啦..
到了college..我相信你一定不会忘记我们的..
得空要回来看我们啊..
一切顺心..加油..

他很帅..
超级帅..
剪了头发更帅..
我们真有缘..
太帅了..


下星期残咯..
考试多到..
不知怎样死..
不能不能..我要活..
你们一定要帮我..
物理..积分..化学..残..
老师有看我的blog..
可以当成周记吗？哈哈..
最好可以啦..


唉..
为什么爱情总经不起考验？？
四年咯..
不知我哥和她能和好吗？？
我自问我哥对她很好..当然她对我哥也很好..
但为何为何会这样？？？我哥为了这件事..竟然流泪..
看来他很在乎他们之间的感情..
我很疼我哥，真希望有个两全其美的解决方法..
烦..烦..
我哥下星期大考咯..
希望他快点振作..
天啊..
请让我苦命的哥快快开心起来..


在巧圆家写完中楷写的..

最近很多考试..很累..
为什么比别人差..
其他人读一下就能考到比我好很多..
难道我复出的努力比别人少??
近来我真的很伤心..
晚上很难入眠..
如果第二天有考试..
我整晚都谁不好..很累..
第二天不止要考试..还要听课..
压力很大..
我在想为什么自己那么不开心..
我最近才发现我无故的伤心..
成绩我只会伤心一下..
但真的开心不起来..
哎..真的怕自己没办法坚持下去..
每个老师都对我们很尽责..
我真的不想令他们失望..
不管..
我要努力..努力..努力..努力..
也许我会一直叫你们教我那些我不明白的..
但我很笨..希望你们不要嫌我烦..
先谢谢你们..
不管如何..
我们都要加油..努力..努力..
我就不信我们考不好..


f.doi..
thx..u help me sing tat song..